God has smiled on me

Ive been thinking a lot lately (suprise suprise) about life; the good, the bad and the superfulous.

The good in life: EVERYTHING! the world, the amazing people in my life, music, sky, sea, animals. There is beauty everywhere, love and joy to be found in the best and most free things in this world.

The bad in life: People! Hate to break it to you, but the only thing wrong with this world is that people live here, we destroy, hate, mock, defame, and belittle each other and the world. Every tragedy boils down to human intervention.

The Superfulous in life: WORRY! Upon pondering the first few chapters of Ecclesiastes, a far more real and beneficial book than Moby Dick suggested, I came across this brilliant saying "grasping at the wind".

We all know that the wind is not tangible. We cant grab it, we can feel it, breathe it, smell scents upon it, even contain it, but grab a tangible hold?? Nope! This saying signifies the superfulous nature of worrying. Worrying does nothing but make one feel sick. Our lives are in the hands of a far greater power than our worrying.

To this end, God has smiled on me, and all of us. We dont need to worry about life because its been crafted into his perfect plan. Huge weight off my mind!

It is difficult to remember how pointless and ridiculous our worrying is; when things go wrong or we are concerned about something it is natural to worry, but it is not necessary.
Nevertheless I know that I am a happier, kinder, and calmer person when Im not worrying about how my life will turn out; Im learning to trust in my maker and know that with his guidance I will be immensely satisfied.

procrastination versus worry

Its often said that the biggest time waster is procrastination. However upon pondering the mysteries of life, it struck me that worry is perhaps a greater waste of time. During procrastination, be it pre-commencing an assignment, making a phone call...whatever laborious task, one is still doing something. Be it sitting on facebook sending out notification love, or watching tv, reading a book...in my case doing dishes or washing (only time I actually have the desire to do so), something is being done.
However, when one worries, one does naught but ponder and consider and worry. As good as a little mental exercise is, worry is detrimental as it can make one sick, come out in sores (cold sores are the bain of my existance) or render on ueseless for any activity bar worry.

Add in the fact that our lives are threads in the great tapestry of life, designed by God, what is the point in worrying? Not that I advocate procrastination either, putting off undesirable tasks does not remove them, merely postpones the inevitable. However one should live life free of worry or doubt, but trust and have faith in our creator, he has known us since he breathed us into existance, no other could guide or plan our lives aswell...I certainly am going to try to worry less.

lyrics

My computer got a virus and nearly died, and has been resurrected by my amazing father. It still is rather sick though; the lack of soundcard recognition really limits the things I can do with it! The greatest issue with my sick computer is that I cant make any new playlists.

I am more than a fan of music; music speaks to people in ways that nothing else can. Music is a passion of mine, it combines words which I love and melodies which course through me like blood through veins. Music can change people.
Anyway as I have no ability to make a new playlist to my satisfaction at present, I have been listening to artists. Some of the albums on my ipod have the most amazing lyrics. I am continually blown away by the realness of Thirsty Merc, Lowrider, Bethany Dillon and Queen, to name a few.

I encourage you to grab your music player of choice and listen to your favourite artists, and really listen to what they are saying to you.

Lyrics can speak to people in a truly unique way. They are inobtrusive, poignant and real. At least the artists I listen to have lyrics has such!

I am leaving you now with something beautiful from Thirsty Merc:

Life is life
Pain and joy are all part of it
Why ask why
Just to be alive is
Such a gift

Pinching ideas from Chelsie Cossens!

Techincally she stole this from someone else; indeed it would be doubtful to have a completely unique idea, however one's spin on any idea is what is unique! Just by the by, one should get into Chelsie's blog, its fresh and lovely and all about uncovering happiness, something which for even the happiest of us can still be hard at times.

Anyway, enough about Chelsie, and more about me :P This is just a seventeen question bio on who I am apparently however if either myself or you are any closer to actually discovering a way through the complicated nature of my psyche at the end of it, I will be astounded!

I am: God only knows! My name is Emma, most call me Em, but others think thats too short a name!

I love: So very much. My sister, my family, my friends, life, the sky, footy, music, getting passionate about something...I could go on!

I like: Chips, popcorn, computer games, driving, movies, reading, talking, being quiet

I have: Tooo much to say about too much

I wish: I dont wish because wishing is pointless, believing and hoping is the only way

I want: To sneak a peek at the future, just to know that Ill be happy and fufilled, then Ill be perfectly happy to just wait till I get there!

I can: Be who I want to be

I cant: Dance

I think: Alll the freaking time

I need: Purpose and passion

I will: Get purpose and passion

I wont: Be somebody Im not, I cant, I wont, I refuse!

I HATE: The way humanity has wrecked so many things; a world with so much seems to be found wanting so much, I dont understand how we cant look around and just be happy with this amazing place! I also HATE people who talk loudly on the phone on the train and ticking or scraping sounds

I tolerate: Nothing

I ignore: Things I should probably tolerate

I always: Annoy myself ha I always realise when I make a mistake and pray to learn and better myself from it

I appreciate: Everything; I am so damn lucky!!!

turning up the positivity

It may come as a shock to some, but I really am a negative person.
I have faith in people and the world and democracy and maintain a positive outlook on life, I dont have the time or the desire to be sad, particularly about things I cannot change.
However, in my observations of people, indeed in my communications with people, I tend to have a sharp tongue quick to point out fault. I genuinely mean to do this out of love to my friends and family, its all about improvement!
However it really does not improve anyone's life to suggest that the lady on the tram yesterday with the red and black hair looked like she had spiders all over her head! I dont know her and thinking those thoughts really only makes ME bitter.

So Ive decided to try and exert a little more positivity, just personally... I wouldnt want to shock anyone! Yesterday amidst the noise and monotony of work I managed to write at least another poem, at most a potential song...who knows what Ill achieve today...It may just be as simple as not rolling my eyes at the nutters in my philosophy tutorial!

hunchback of notre dame

Started watching the Hunchback of Notre Dame today and it struck me that the message it brings is so very important. It is truly evil that people judge and condem those who are not normal; who dont fit the image society believes in. I myself notice these differences...but we really shouldnt react or judge them.

After all we are all children of God.

theory

I have determined why God decided to make me the way I am. I have often wondered why God does make us individually; each a different size or shape, some far smaller than others!!!
When I think about the way I am, my personality and nature...I realised that God had a very good reason for making me small of stature.
I am a particularly opinionated and stubborn and angry and I think if I were tall or of imposing stature, Id be scary. Hence God made me an insignificant size so that people would actually feel comfortable to come talk to me...and learn from my sensational insight :P

So I guess I should really praise God for making me the way he did, and feel secure that there is a logical reason....It also means that I dont have to try to be someone Im not, for the sake of being able to talk to people.